When I'm Down (07/04/24)

 When I'm Down

07 April 2024

The struggle within every time I opened my eyes in the morning, my head got ruined these past weeks. The chaos inside my head starts my insanity. The laugh and smile start to disappear from my cheeks. Hesitate to live within the storm's growling in my head, reflecting on what happened recently seems didn't works.

I've been thinking about how to disappear completely, questioning existence, breathing barely air. Will the world care if I vanish away? My life slowly falls down in the downstair. Yearning into the void escaping on wings of despair.

The empty road has led me to the black hole of suffering, I choose to go awaiting the final countdown. Nobody knows I've been in a masquerade, concealing death for being a clown. Seeking understanding in this lonely exile, until I get drown.

Leaving anyone alone, until the light blurs my vision and I have nowhere to roam. My fate has come and I'm ready to finish all of my life's exam. Revoke the grief that surrounds my soul these times, I've gone far in reaching my dream.

And from all of my annihilation,

I will always remember the finality when I'm down.

I'm only near the finality when I'm gone.

But one thing to keep in mind,

That I'm down all the time

All the time

All the time

play the song above while reading the poem

(written by J on 07/04/24)

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