Shitty Poems

 Pictures of You 12 August 2025 Beneath the sun in 2022, My gaze slipped across the room, caught on the soft line, through your shadow. And somehow, God's own accident, We were poured into the same place. Nothing in my head, but the bronze of your skin, the tender of your smile, the fire in your eyes, Take the breath of my eagers. My heart plundered, held my breath at your every turn, trembled in the heat of your voice, carrying me out to your paradise. Eye-to-eye, face-to-face, but a cruel invisible wall kept us from mouth to mouth. November rain 2023, carried us away.  I wished your voice would linger a little longer. Knew you're out tonight, but not whose body you held. Nearly lost you, yet you pulled me back to my favorite sin. Warm. Strange. Intense. Sacred hours 2024, I knew the house you grew up in, the friends who guarded your laughter, the fragile weight you place on yourself. I knew the nights that folded in on you, the sorrows that cracked you open. And I vowed, to ...

  Lover, You Should've Come Over 23 May 2025 Romance is already dead.  No love letters, nor yearnings. Just wandering eyes, as lust rushes in. Romance is already dead. No commitment, only detachment. Modernity ruined us, t urning purity into illusion. And maybe my fragility, wondering what it feels like to be longed for. Just like Kafka, would turn a knife inside himself. Not hunger, but sacrifice. And maybe my instability, wondering what it feels like to be loved. Just like Dostoevsky, would accept the destined, perhaps as a punishment. Not used, but suffered. And maybe my insecurity, wondering what it feels like to be truly seen. Just like Nietzsche, would be willing to nothingness. Not craving, but soul-devouring. Must I always keep dreaming of being someone's destiny? Must I always keep seeking to be someone's aim? Or else, I might be too naive. Or else, I might be too repressive. It all leads to exploitation, And my soul drifts toward abolition. Roaming far away, Wishi...

 When I'm Down 07 April 2024 The struggle within every time I opened my eyes in the morning, my head got ruined these past weeks. The chaos inside my head starts my insanity. The laugh and smile start to disappear from my cheeks. Hesitate to live within the storm's growling in my head, reflecting on what happened recently seems didn't works. I've been thinking about how to disappear completely, questioning existence, breathing barely air. Will the world care if I vanish away? My life slowly falls down in the downstair. Yearning into the void escaping on wings of despair. The empty road has led me to the black hole of suffering, I choose to go awaiting the final countdown. Nobody knows I've been in a masquerade, concealing death for being a clown. Seeking understanding in this lonely exile, until I get drown. Leaving anyone alone, until the light blurs my vision and I have nowhere to roam. My fate has come and I'm ready to finish all of my life's exam. Revoke...

 Do I Have to Say The Words? 19 November 2023 Watching your motions through my side eyes, freeze by your cold ice. The distance I've countdown, bizarre that I've ever known, ever known. Strange sparkles grew inside me, your eyes arrowed to mine, I would let them consume. Was that the first time I've faded into you, I assume? I would never decide. Wondering all day was the only exceed. Was thinking that an angel like you would never touch my dirty ground and would never land. But from that day, your eyes bite my veins. Your eyes, your eyes are the venomous poison of any time. I could not help myself, I got drowned and hard to overcome. Your venomous eyes slowly spread along my blood, and my organs turn into chaos. My brain was knocked out by vertigos. Destructions appeared in my cosmos. Your eyes distract my psyche outscolds, And what if I've fallen for you, for the worst? Do I have to say the words? play the song above while reading the poem (written by J on 19/11/23)

 War is Over 15 March 2023 For the past few days, I lost my sleep and caught my eyes dried, the wind came off slowly erasing the left dust of you. As the night came, the devil inside me whispered to my ear: "You seem not tough enough to handle the emptiness."   He worried enough that the fire that I used to have, slowly decreased and passed. He saw that I lost the light of my life, the fire of my loins, and the sin of my soul. Half past three in the morning, a bold sharp thing stabbed my chest and scratched the aches. The more I got the glimpse of you ghosted to my head, the more its pain stayed longer. While my demons stay faithful, Wondering if you ever come back again? Wondering if I ever see you again? He knows that I'm a fool. In a week of stages of grief, the pain and aches turn into numb. My demon feel sorry that he couldn't keep me safe, then he starts to make me realize that nothing lasts forever. I forgot for a while that people always come and go, and that...

  About You 13 March 2023 Your eyes were made of diamonds that have blinded my eyes and they will always stare out to my soul, then I don't know how to forget how they shine so bright. Your eyes keep making me paralyzed then I get lost inside, so I can't escape somewhere else instead of stuck in your hypnotize. Your figure makes me wonder about how the smell of the air that comes off of your skin and spreads along your arms. The smell of a heavenly place to rest and forget how's my terrible life. Your finger that length itself reminds me of how beautiful branches that keep the leaves growing shady. The branches that will grow up incredibly strong so they can grasp those red cherries, and it remembers me of how your lips appear as if begging to taste. And still, I cannot shut myself up to admire how beautiful creature that God has made. And still, I stunned myself and wondered how every sparkle of dazzling stars could surround your soul without any doubts. The demon inside m...